Showing posts with label loss. Show all posts
Showing posts with label loss. Show all posts

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Adventures of Tofu Scrambles

Life since she passed has been, unbearable. I dream of her struggles, and the poison that led her to heaven. I feel her presence in my mind and body. I fear forgetting the memories we shared. But as much as I mourn, karma is delivering me the opportunities I need right now. I have been debating transferring for a while now to pursue a career centered around sustainability and health, and it crossed my mind to go back to vermont. At the funeral, her roommate told me she said I would go back. Some people don't believe in signs, but I can't help but believe she is helping me realize what I need to do and when.

So... in honor of savoring the last bit of the tofu in my fridge, here is a recipe for this morning's tofu scramble:




Ingredients:
warning- all measurements are estimated as I normally am experimenting


- 1/3 package firm tofu

- 1/8 cup red bell pepper (chopped)
- 1/8 cup red onion (chopped)
- 1/8 cup yellow tomato (diced)
- 1 1/2 cups baby spinach
- 1 tbsp olive oil
- 1/8 tsp curry powder
- 1/6 tsp turmeric powder 
- 1/6 tsp chili powder


For garnish: chopped chipotle pepper & dash of nutritional yeast w/ ground pepper



Instructions:


  1. heat olive on in medium size pan with olive oil. chop your vegetables and add them. 
  2. before your vegetables begin to sweat, drain your tofu and place the block on a plate. place a folded paper town on top and top with a heavy object. this will drain some of the water out of your tofu which prevents your tofu turning mushy in the pan. 
  3. after, throw your spinach and tofu in the pan. allow to cook for a few minutes before adding in your spices.
  4. top with anything your heart desires and enjoy!

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

A Soul in the Sky

Saturday night, I lost my best friend.

I tried my best to prepare myself for the day I knew was approaching. She had been sick for so long and the past few months everything seemed to enter a downward spiral. But as a 19 year old, there is no way to fully accept the loss of your best friend to a devil like cancer.

Eight years I had known her and now we will no longer have a future to share together. We won't be able to travel the world in her van. We won't be able to move to California together. We won't be able to grow up into Golden Girls together.  I am still walking around in a haze. It is like a huge fog is overflowing my mind and clouding my thoughts. I so badly want to cry yet all I have experienced are small tears that dissapear as soon as they come.

The concept of death is so new to me. It was something I myself had debated for a long time before she saved me from my demons. It was something she comforted my through when my grandfather past away earlier this year. And now she is gone.